Croak....

I've lost my voice completely...horror of horrors for someone who loves yakking...
nvr b4 in my whole almost 25 yrs of existence hv i lost my voice so completely b4, i had to thrust my ic to the cab driver so as to indicate my address since i cud muster nothin save for a croak..

Coughin non stop too..n now my throat reallie feels sore...been on course with Pam these two days so i gotta go bk to work tml..though i think i need more rest...sigh...
Been quite under e weather recently...perhaps, it's stress n perhaps it's jus too many things happenin at one go tt jus gets me down..
Felt abit like yest when i was practisin the alternate breathin mtd in e pool n i started coughin underwater, was splutterin water when i gt above the water..feels so much like struggle sometimes..n perhaps, it's startin to take a toll...most of all, on my health, i think..

I wonder who my true frens reallie r sometimes..Best pal is definitely one, without doubt...so is pam n wen...Trainin buddy will always be on my side too..wad abt e rest...? I've always felt tt boyfriends r transient in nature, they come n go..it's quite scary..One moment, u spend so much time with tt person tt they r so much a part of ur life...another moment, u may nvr see them again. friendships, even though mild in nature, are those tt last, i suppose...bt r they forever too?

I hv this one fren who's constantly judgin me n sad to say, always seems to think e worse of me. perhaps, she hails frm moral high ground or perhaps, she reallie finds my actions n behaviour abominable...i'm reallie nt too sure why. Bt i realise tt all pple r different n though i feel pple hv no right to judge me if it's none of their business, i guess i recognize e fact tt i hv no right to stop them frm hving such opinions abt me too.
So after gettin upset abt it for a nite, i think i rest my case.
There r better ways of spendin my time..

Hong Kong..

Okie, I suppose having spent almost 2 wks in HK, I should post something abt that charming Pearl of the Orient.. spent 11 days there,tagged along with him on his work trip.. I guess I hv mized feelings with rgds to this trip. It was not too short so we din hv to rush around like crazy tourists, squeezing in all the sightseeing at a go but on the other hand, it was abit too long since there was jus so much tt HK could offer. Plus, I was alone much of the time during the day since he was working.

I absolutely lurve the shoppin there, the Honkies r into the androgynous kinda dressin, comfy, with lotsa layerin and tt's hw i like it to be! clothes there r reallie cheap yet fashionable n i reallie went crazy shoppin there, almost everyday I wud lug my clothes bk to the hotel rm n den dump them in one corner b4 gg out for more, haz....Food is great too, u can be assured of impeccable quality at almost every cha can ting.,..the tea cafe n yeah, their milk tea is to die for...I ended up drinkin milk tea for almost every meal in HK. The weather was abit too hot n humid for me, since it was summertime n the crowds were amazing too...ha, it's a gd thing i'm quite like hving lotsa pple ard since it jus adds on to the vibrancy of the city.

Went to the Fitness First gym in HK too, they hv this triple storey branch and the one at Central boasts this stunning view of the harbour and magnificent outline of the skyscrapers in the heart of the city..The Peak was nice too,esp at nite.... It was abit tryin though...i guess having to live with someone for a protracted period of time, esp when tt someone gets sick and cranky...oh well, Live and learn, i suppose..

And i'm gg to Paris and Berlin next month! finally...after missin tt opportunity to go Morocco and Portugal....nt tt i'll hv much time for sightseein, i think...will onli be spending 2 days in Paris and abt 5-6 days in Berlin and Munich..Still considering whether I shud extend my stay cuz i'll hv lotsa reports to churn out for this trip and all the post trip stuff to do bt Europe is just too irresistable..

Lookin out the window to check out the weather...it's still wet and dismal...sigh...i feel like makin an escape to Sentosa..it's the place I slip off to whenever i feel like sortin my thoughts out n a suntan session is top priority too since my color is fading after e tan I gt from the Shape Run. It was my first run of e yr as I had to miss the Army Half Marathon for my HK trip and I clocked my best timing ever! 53-54 mins..which reminds me, i reallie ought to start trainin for the marathon...bleah...been so lazy recently..

Okie, outta here...

I'm gg to do a bit of plagarism....lifted the below extract frm Wen's blog...we used to go through the same spate of events tog...broke up with our exes, gt tog with the new one at the same time, cut hair tog etc...but our paths diverged soon after...she's happily engaged and gg to get married next yr whilst i suppose the most u can say abt me is that I'm still searching..

Trust
I've learnt that one should never say anything but the truth. Do not lie and never do that because you will break the trust that took years to accumulate and build.

I forgive but i never forget and while i'm always trying to learn to trust again, lies hinder the progress. Maybe trust is not everything and maybe - i can live without it.

Not posted on blogger for so long tt i clean forgot abt my password AGAIN...
It's interesting hw a whirlwind of events can happen within such a short span, i suppose tt's why they're called whirlwind.. As usual, blastin the hifi as I'm typin this..
Woke up at 8am, feelin reallie refreshed, cuz i knocked out at 7 plus pm yest, i din do much exercise at all, only tried my hand at table tennis for the 1st time so I guess i was more mentally and emotionally drained den physical wise..

"I forgive but I nvr forget"...hw true tt is, that was wad i wud usually say..The truth may hurt bt to have to find out the truth later and realising tt someone close to u lied wud hurt infinitely more. It rankles on in the mind, in the heart and no matter hw much I wish to just brush it off and start afresh, I can't do it. The ghost of past events constantly lurk around and haunt me and I dun like the person I've become. I miss the former carefree me. I suppose there's just so much that one can take. In the past, something would happen that would make me stagger and take a few steps back but I would bounce back real fast. There's just something within me that made me feel that it was still worth it and I could see the light at the end.

This time round, I'm just not so sure. I just lack the energy to regain my footing...and I'm beginning to feel that it may be easier to continue this journey alone.