Red eyed monster

I'm down with conjunctivitis...wad a mouthful..
On 2 days mc, jus when I hv a thousand n one things to settle tis wk.
I hate e peak n lull periods tt characterize my job..
sometimes i wonder whether the phrase, "nice boss" is doomed to be oxymoronic..haz!
Mum was down with eye infection a few days ago, her whole left eye swelled n was red n puffy...
Poorie us.

If anione were to ask me wad i consider to be my greatest character flaw, I think i hv e answer now.
Procrastination.
I'm a GREAT procrastinator. Be it seeing e doc, taking med, cuttin my hair, buyin clothes, settlin my bills, dg up my resume, tidyin my rm etc.
My best character trait?
Perhaps my boundless energy, i do hv lotsa energy...though tis may nt always be positive..

I was on e mrt a few days ago n noticed to my amusement hw pple on e mrt r constantly sneaking nt so discreet peeps at e person reading e papers next to them.
As in, they're lookin at e papers, nt e person.
Opposite my row, there was tis Indian who was scrutinizing intently e paper of e guy next to him.
Well, i was amused cuz tt guy was readin e Chinese nite tabloid..
N jus a few seats away, there was tis other guy who was reading a little ger's Today..
Cracked me up bt i noe I'm guilty of tt too

I did yoga a few days ago.
Discovered tt I'm quite flexible, despite dg it for e 2nd time in my entire life, i cud place my head on e floor when i stand with my legs spread open n straight in a line.
bt yoga is tough...My whole body reallie ached e next day...Ouch...
Bt i think i'll continue with it, somehw, it allows me to connect with my mind n body..
Jus wad I need.
I've been pigging out on chips recently, morphin into a pig..

A rainy Sunday..

Seems like it's raining every single morn...sigh...
My knee is throbbing in pain nw, i think it's gettin back at me for abusing it all too often..
I've designated Fridays my rest n relax day, a day in which if i'm nt gg out, I'll go to e gym to chill out bt no cardio nor strength-training..
So last Fri, popped down for bodybalance class (combi of yoga, pilates n taichi) n after tt, went for a lazy swim under e clear nite skies...
Yes, i trudged to e Paragon gym for pump, combat n a 5k run.
At 1st, i still tot of squeezin in some shoppin b4 meetin JH for din bt as expected, my weary body n embattled legs, esp on 4 inch heels wun allow such a luxury..

Training bud smsed me frm Rome, telling me abt his beautiful morn run in a Rome park, tt crazy boy has been gettin up at 5am every morn to squeeze in a run b4 the day's meetings. I jus dunno y bt been feeling dissatisfied n unhappy. Tt shud nt be e case at all, i guess at times, one's mood will jus dip. Norm, by e time i get hm frm gym, i'll be so exhausted tt i'll jus crawl into bed n slp like a baby till e next morn.

Mebbi i jus need sthg to perk me up. Another nice pair of heels wud be nice. I'm gg to buy a gold one, woots! I lurve gold! It goes reallie well with all my other fave colors, brown, green, black n white. Bt shopping tires me much more than gg to e gym, i wonder y, mebbi it's cuz I detest walking n shoppin is all abt walking n amidst throngs of pple, somemore, bleah!

Trainin bud will be back frm Paris tonite, am happy, hee hee cuz he has gotten me nice, dark chocs n I'll hv company for my runs nw. I suddenly rem tt next wk will be the MILK run, hven't done enuff runnin tis wk. Interval training on Tues, an hr run with Gabbie on Thurs n tt 5k run I did on e treadmill yest. I've decided to incorporate yoga n bodybalance classes to my gym regime, figured stretching n mind calmin classes lidat wud be gd. So, my gym regime for one wk shud look like tis:

Strength training
2 bodypump classes

Cardio
1 or 2 bodycombat class
Swimming once a wk

Stretching
1 yoga class
1 bodybalance class

Marathon Training
1 interval training
1 tempo run
1 endurance run

I dunno whether I shud go for gym today, i seldom ever miss my Sunday classes since combat with Calvin is e most fun. Hehz,e gd thing abt Paragon gym, although it's usually quite crowded, wud be tt i get to see e most popular n desirable personal trainer in Spore...Chris Cheng. He is so darn gdlookin one jus can't help throwin a few glances in his direction. He was coaching a middle aged woman whilst I was runnin on e treadmill n haz, i cudn't help it bt ramp up my runnin speed. He's a motivation, in some ways. My new MOJO!
okie, outz..

Women's talk..

Had a nice, evening run with Gabbie today....it was drizzling jus when we stepped out bt gd thing it stopped..
Ran to Bukit Batok nature park, stood in front of xiao guilin n jus took in nature at its best.
Tokked abt work, colleagues, marriage, crushes n jus life in general..
It's been some time since w elast ran, e last run i had with her was during e Xmas period last yr...
It was nice to hear e views n perspectives of another woman n jus njoy some female bonding..
As we sat on e steps, gulpin down our 100-plus n lookin at e crimson skies across e field, it jus felt peaceful n nice.
n she gave me some gd, sound advice..which was e same given by our Lit lecturer in JC n which had been deeply etched in my mind ever since..

"Dun go for looks. Looks dun last forever. As a woman, always find someone who loves u more than u love him."

Alliance Francaise?

Contemplating whether to take French classes with Pam at Alliance Francaise...
Always been interested in these 3 languages, Italian, French n Japanese..
Hmmmm...bt she'll be taking e Thurs class n with my gym class, marathon training etc, adding French learning is gg to stretch real thin...
Had to skip my run tonite cuz migraine seems to be acting up, figured I needed a rest anyway...
If I reallie do take up French, tt means I need to go on early morn runs in order to squeeze in my marathon training...
Plus, jus to complete elementary French itself will require 6 stages, each stage comprising of 2 mths of lessons each..
I dun wanna gif up halfway.
I stuck to my marathon training, I persisted in my gym workouts so if I do take up French, I wanna be sure I'll stick to it too.

Gimme strength...more time...n more energy...

Wad a wk...

I'm so glad tt hectic wk of the Shangri-La Dialogue is over.
After being a sickie n resting adequately for 4 days, i resumed training...uppin my training nw tt it's officially 6 mths b4 e marthie...
So here goes..

Fri: Took a day's leave with training bud, badminton in e morn n run in e gym
Sat: Bodypump n bodycombat
Sun: Bodycombat
Mon: Bodycombat
Tues: Bodypump
Wed: 1.5 hr run with training bud, interval training and static exercises

Thurs: Badminton sesh n half hr run
Went to join e experts play bad tog with training bud, they hv badminton sesh every Thurs at Temasek Club n it was jus awesome to play with them though i reallie suck compared to them. Their smashes make me shiver, haz...e sessions lasted 3.5 hrs n it was total fun! Plus, Peter, a gym instructor cum veteran marathoner who has a bod so tough n fit he looks like The Rock gave us veri useful tips on marathon training...His PR for e marthie is sub 3, woots! HIs trainin schedule's tough to replicate though...bt I'll keep at it!

Fri: Swimming
It was a nice leisurely swim... Sprawled out on e sundeck to read Runners World mag 1st then as e evening skies darkened, popped into e pool n did some laps, great way to unwind n gif my muscles some recovery time..
Sat: 1 hr run with trainin bud, interval training
Sun: Bodypump, Bodycombat n Bodybalance

This wud make 10 consecutive days I've exercised, a record for me so far, i think..Bt I'm so happy! The endorphins hv kicked in n done their job.. Training bud left for Rome n Paris last nite for work trip, no running buddy for me tis wk bt I had beta get used to training alone. Our plans for a 20 km early morn run at East Coast was ruined by e heavy downpour, quirky weather! I've signed up for the Milk Run which is on 2 July, same day as trainin bud's triathlon. This will be e first race for both of us tis yr though mine's reallie a wobblie compared to his.

Finally met e 2a'ers, it just felt gd to sit down with them, chill out n tok. Seems like lotsa pple r changing their jobs nw. I've fixed up my resume bt i think it needs some major tinkering still. Been quite exhaused with training to properly sit down n settle my stuff. I've given myself half a yr more bt starting early wun hurt, i guess...

n I've finally goten e much coveted Mphosis top!! I've nvr gone to such extremes for any clothes. Tis muz be e first. Was shoppin with trainin bud tt fri n saw tis top at Mphosis, decided to try it on n it was totally right bt decided nt to buy it 1st, thinkin tt perhaps they'll hv a sale sometime ltr. Bt 2 days ltr, I went right back to buy n e marina sq outlet was out of stock, i went to citylink mall n then bugis n both outlets were out too! Made a last ditch attempt n popped over to Taka n it was out of stock too! So last evenin, at PS, whilst waitin for e 2a'ers, i popped into Mphosis, nt reallie expectin to find it since it was nt even on the window display as it was in all e other stores n i found it right in e middle of e racks n even had new pieces too! Ha, i clutched it to my chest n bought it right away. Popped over to Dorothy Perkins n bought 2 other tops too n all these was within e span of 15 mins... my wallet's becomin anorexic soon...n there
's e Zara sale on 29 June which all my female colleagues hv oredi marked it on their calenders, haha, it's so funny..We're all Zaraists at e workplace..

Okie, off to check thr Recruit. Prayin for hot sun today, suntannin's on e agenda...

I miss e sun...

It's pwetty weird June weather.
Stormy skies one day n scorching sun e next.
Bt it has been raining incessantly for quite a few days...
Yest wanted to squeeze in some sunbaking bt e rain halted all plans...
I had to roll myself off e bed today cuz I ached so much all over my bod, phooey...i hope tt ain't mean i'm growing old..
Went to Gyu-Kaku for a last Jappie meal b4 he jetted off, Jap bbq which was famous for its Wagyu beef, e beef cheek is gd! n the grilled scallops n prawns too.
We're nt huge fans of red meat...Chose e Shogun set n in e end I think we much preferred e seafood dishes to e lamb n beef ones...





It was cy's bdae last Mon bt I was a sickie then n cud nt make it n yest's gathering with e 2A peeps was postponed to next wk n i jus rem i've gt a company function to attend next Sat....bleah!
I miss them so much, these dear frens whom I grew up with...Heez, n it'll be so much fun to tok abt wad we're gonna wear for e 2 2A wedding dinners at e end of tis yr.
It's so sweet to see my dear frens gettin happily married.
bt hiakz, I'm def nt hankering after married life.
It's a mighty forest out there, no pt gifing it all up for a single tree, at least nt yet...
I wan a gd, solid oak tree when e moment finally arrives!


I think I'll hafta skip pump todae, my knackered muscles r reallie feelin quite pooped at this pt.
Will jus go for combat ltr n mebbi a run or swim after tt.
Was flippin thr Recruit today, as usual, nothin much interesting.
I still hv my eyes on onli one org bt too bad, tt MNC's mighty hard to get into, unless I reallie do decide to go for further studies.
Anyway, steering clear of serious issues, I reallie need some sun nw....I miss sun kissed skin....tis pic brings back fond memories of sneaking off to Sentosa for a private rendezvous all by myself with e sun, sea, sand n myself for company.



n more pics of tt time when we went to KM8 at Tanjong Beach at Sentosa for apple martinis n sparklers....
Lounging on e deck chair


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My Nano..

So i gt out of e rut i had slipped into last wk. Spent abt 6 hrs re-dg my resume last Sat n will gif myself half a yr to scout ard for a job tt's reallie for me.
I wish to spend my Xmas with e dear gers at work aniwae..
Gd news is I'm sickie no more n gt back into my exercise routine, though my entire bod's reallie aching badly nw.
Me n training bud took leave on Fri n played bad in e morn, I went gym in e noon b4 meetin him for shoppin n movie. The Omen was unexpectedly gd!
It gt me riveted frm e start right thr' e end, no easy feat for someone who mostly finds watching movies a waste of time.
n I did sthg shameful tt i've nt done for years...haha.
I nt only covered my eyes, i even used my hands to cover my ears so i wun hear e eerie backgrd music..
Window shopped a while, Zara's reallie tempting...heez, I've ordi spotted a few pieces which i'm lusting after..
n there's tis gorgeous emerald green top which was totally bareback, a design I've been on e lookout for ages! Bt it costs a whooping 125 bucks for jus a mere top...my better senses told me it ain't worth it..oh well...

And Hippo gt me a black ipod nano with a red armband to go with it b4 he left Spore. I was esctatic! n tt pressie hit me with a pang too cuz I had been too caught up in work to reallie think abt e fact tt he'll be leaving n wun be back until a yr ltr.





I 1st listened to my nano during our moonlight run on his last nite in Spore n i cud feel e difference! I felt much more energized n recharged. I tot of kindred spirit at tt time too, I guess it was e song tt triggered certain memories. So I'm all psyched up though nano's nt with me, he took it with him to dl all e songs I needed. I'll be arrangin one whole series of tracks to keep my adrenaline moving on for Standchart, it'll be so much fun to see hw motivating music can be. I'm no purist when it comes to runnin so i'm all for e idea of hearing some music to get one all pumped up. I lurve all my bodypump n combat tracks too, too bad i can't make out wad e songs r sometimes..

Accompanied him to his fellow pilot trainee's church wedding ceremony e wk b4 he left as well... 1st time I witnessed a military style sword bearing kinda wedding ceremony n i hafta say it was pwetty cool...Reminded me of Zoe Tay's wedding with her pilot hubby...Bt e songs played during e churc ceremony lacked tt certain zest in it. Hehz, if it were mine, I'll play e track by Richard Marx n Donna Lewis, At e Beginning, e track frm Anastasia...Pretty appropriate too, i figured. e bride broke down quite a few times n i suddenly had a sudden vision of me bursting into a hysterical bout of laughter in e middle of e ceremony. Cuz e last time i acc him to church, i was fidgeting thr'out, extremely unglam, i noe, haha..

I'm feeling perkier nw, knowing i wun hafta stay on in tt fortress for long...It'll be jus half a yr more n i'll be out. After 1 yr in e workforce, I dare say I noe better wad kinda career I wan n in which industry as well. n e latter half of e yr is littered with all kinds of runs, just e thing to get my spirits up. Been feeling a bit lonesome recently, perhaps it's e emptiness in my life which I need to get used to. N if I reallie do make my choice, I had better get used to more days of loneliness ahead, i guess..bt I feel safe, warm n secure n tis kinda feeling brought me back to those gd, old days once more.

I'm still waiting for a resolution, however. N I pray for it to come soon.

Raku!

Raku means happy in Japanese n yeah, i was indeed veri happy when i was tucking into e Jap buffet at Raku..haha..

It's bleak...

The madrush is finally over...The Shangri-La Dialogue's ended n along with it, our side prog as well.
My entire wkend was burnt n i was feeling feverish yest with a splitting headache.
By t time i gt hm frm e airport, it was near 1am n i was jus so so exhausted....
2 days mc...doc said i needed to quit coffee completely cuz apparently, i've been falling ill quite frequently cuz of caffeine...

I'm feeling quite lost at this pt of my life.
I just feel so lonesome and disillusioned. Quite frankly, i'm sick of pandering to pple's needs, faking a smile for nasty pple n hving to play games with those slippery snakes. N i'm beginning to abhore my job, loathe e nature of it, absolutely detest it now. I seem to hv drifted away frm my close frens. I'm too weary at times to stick to my exercise regime. Pple who're special to me r all far away. N just e previous wk alone, i've been reduced to tears 3 times. I dun like to think of myself as a weak person, who gives up easily bt perhaps, i jus am a weakling.

So be it then.