Of then n now...

A lot of things have happened in e course of just a month..
n it still amazes me...hw so much can change in such a short time frame..
It seems as if I've reached e threshold of yet another phase in my life...bt besides tough choices to make, I suppose wad's reallie holding me back is tt inner voice within me tt tells me I'm just nt ready to settle down.
The hurt still rankles deep down....
I'm nw listening to e Jay Chou cd which I always play in Ric's car...those days seem such a long long time away...
I suppose I still miss him every nw n then n will wonder hw he's getting on with his life, whether he's planning to get married soon etc..

Shan n Blind will be holding their wedding dinners end tis yr n I'll be one of e jiemeis for Shan's wedding...n it has suddenly occured to me tt even i I ever get married one day, it'll be at a later age...
Something tells me tt if I wan happiness, I wud hv to overcome my insecurities towards relationships n marriage...
or perhaps I'm still waiting for the right one to dispel all my fears n worries.
I dun like to love someone more than he loves me..I abhore tt.

Woozy n grouchy...

I onli worked 1.5 days tis entire wk...
Tummy felt real queasy n uncomfy on Wed noon, off i went to e loo, puked some acideic juices n emerged a green faced Monz...
Left for hm, dragged myself to e doc, 2 days mc n here i am, feeling lousy, grouchy n bleah!!
dunch wanna imagine e mountain of work waiting for me on Mon..
n i've onli been to e gym once tis entire wk....blimey!
Had a New Yr's celeb cum farewell for our Dep Director at our clubhouse, where we hired a famed prata chef to whip up some yummalicious pratas (all of us ordered e cheese n mushroom prata!) n indulged in an Indian buffet with everyone's fave teh tarik to wash down with...
Colleague brought her daughter n Celest was an absolute princess, she was so pwetty n lovely...i kidnapped her, promising her tt i'll bring her to see butterflies, hiakz...n i've decided I wan my firstborn to be a daughter!

New Yr's Countdown was a quiet affair too, headed for gym then had din with YC my oldest fren ever, he gaf me a witch pendant he gt frm Czezch Republic, i lurrve it to bits!
Bt eh, tummy woes set in n i was in bed by 1030pm...totally conked out..
Caught Crazy Horse on e 1st day of 2006 with SS n after e show ended, we went for drinks n dancing at One Nite Stand..nt a bad place, e music was decent n they had a cool live band, e crowd was nothing to look at, though..i figured i was e youngest there..
Boobs featured at Crazy Horse were nothing much to look at, too perfect to e extent tt they looked like fake, rubbery balls...n no, it's nt cuz I'm jealous..
They had tis interesting segment of all the horoscope ladies...N a Scorpion woman is a bewitching one, holding e men in their arms till they've tasted her venom n she wun rest even if it means dying whilst holding them in her embraces..
Gosh, tt sounds scary..

eh, anyway, gt hm at 3 plus am after Crazy Horse n one nite stand n dragged myself out of bed at 8 plus am for a 10km trek at MacRitchie Tree Top Walk..I seriously tot i was gg to die of exhaustion halfway..
I've nvr been an avid fan of walking...i wud rather run 10k than walk 10k esp when i was still feeling woozy frm e alcohol n pooped frm e lack of sleep..

I hven't made any resolutions for 2006..
Top on my list: Standchart marathon 2006
n among others, to cut down on alcohol, to run more, to clean up my rm more regularly...
oh well, wish me luck!

Xmas 2005...figure out e order of e pics urself..

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