Found my peace....at last...

Here I am, sweaty, stinky n weary, plopping down in front of e laptop e moment I stepped into my rm, Din even bother to remove my training shoes...8 pm nw...one n a half hr of escapade... Wad was originally a weary attempt to snap out of e lethargic mode i had been trapped into being stuck in e claustrophic confines of my hall e whole day plus a desperate bid to escape e tone n pitch deaf Xmas carollers who were gg frm floor to floor in my hall turned out to be a truly beautiful experience for me...

I changed into my running gear (jus a flashy word for sloppy shirts n plain shorts) n off i went, reached e carpark, heard e horrible choruses of those deluded carollers, grimaced n set off. It was relatively early for my run n i decided to run towards pgp, hit e most winding roads in sgp n then up e steepest slope in sgp as well to reach Kent Ridge Park. Running along e deserted trail with e lush forestry surrounding me was a tranquil experience, one i enjoyed much cuz i felt harmonious with Mother Nature n ever closer b4. Saw a cute little squirrel which I initially mistook to be a rat, i'm horrified of rats, those ugly grey rodents with long, slimy tails..Tis mite of a fellow was so small, hee, sis told me e other day tt she spied a squirrel during her run too. Lucky me...finally reached e foot of e intimidating ascent. Jogged for a short while b4 switching to walking mode as the slope was simply tearing my knees inside out. As I reached e summit of e park, that wonderous view of e sea, e harbour, those ships sailing lazily n e birds flying ard jus took my breath away. It has been such a long, long time since I visited tis place.

Tis was e first time ever tt i was here alone, given those treacherous slopes, I onli came here with Ric previously. The scenic view n privacy of tis park made it a natural choice for lovers' rendevous n of cuz, there were quite a few couples ard me bt i din wish for anyone special to be with me. At tt moment, i din feel lonely, i had found my inner peace at last, i sought solace n i found it, right tt veri moment. Some pple find their inner peace with God, I found mine with Mother Nature. It was incredible, drinking in tt magnificent view, those amber colored swirls that shaded the azure skies, those misty clouds that had an irrestible allure of its own, e seemingly endless horizons of e sea, those adventurous ships tt seemed to be venturing to long forgotten, farawar lands in search of e mystical gold...I felt like i was in e middle of paradise. Tt place held much cherished memories of me n Ric bt at tt moment, I knew wad was more impt was those memories nt of us but of me. I was e onli one left alone then n as much as i rem tis place with fondness, wad touched me more was tt i felt e place rem me too. I cud feel its sympathy, its empathy...e ger who had been there prior to tis visit was diff frm e ger who ventured there alone today. I felt I had conquered my sadness, overcame my emotions to brave e winding roads, deserted trails n steep slopes n most of all to come face to face with long forgotten memories.

Sat there for a while, jus immersing in e beauty of it all, telling myself I owed it to me to be happy. I was happy when i came with Ric in e past n i'm still happy even now. Gave it a last glance n ran off cuz din fancy starting on e descent in semi darkness..Dinnoe which was worse, e ascent or e descent...e descent was infinitely more dangerous, no chance of running or even jogging down...i had to walk, a slight stumble n one may jus tumble all e way down. Even though I walked, the incline of tt slope was practically gnawing at my knees. Ran e remaining winding road, came to Pasir Panjang n then ran all e way back to NUS, long run, to say e least.

Many things came into my mind during my run back, e most prominent thought was me wondering whether those irritating carollers had cleared e compounds, haha..kidding. That run to Kent Ridge Park was e best Xmas pressie I cud give myself for it represented a break from e past and gave me e tranquility n inspiration to search deep within myself for e thing tt had eluded me for so long, that sanctuary of peace...my abode of happiness. Santa's early tis yr...:)Merry Xmas to all my dear frens!