My first post?
Hmmm..def nt my first blogger post but given e fact tt quite a few frens hv been asking me for my blog address, i decided to set up another blog..reason why i din wanna gif my old blog add was cuz there were quite a no of emotional n therefore private entries in e archives which i jus din feel comfy with letting anyone else but me take a peep. But nw, yeah, all e entries r reallie bland notes abt my everyday life....so yeah, as Soph said, tis blog will enable my frens to be updated on my life, actually..
Was tokking to Soph jus nw cuz she asked me whether i'll be turning up for e history honours Xmas gathering n i was actually disinclined to turn up for it at first but on second tots, i tot perhaps i shud go? Inner struggle, reallie...felt a bit like the character I read in e 2nd book of e Gresham Chronicles, Mr Clay...hmmm...plus the all impt n paramount event of e yr...2a's 10th yr anniv...dun ask me why i'm nt gg. I'm nt too sure why either, perhaps disapptment with some frenships hv made me dev e notion tt i may nt thoroughly enjoy myself in such a big, social gathering n i reallie do nt wish to dampen pple's spirits. Like i asked Soph, am i retreating into reclusivity? Becoming a social hermit? I used to enjoy time alone by myself too but now, it has taken on a diff scale in tt i dun much wish to hang out with big grps n sometimes nt even single frens as well. Rather ashamed of e fact tt Weiyi, my closest guy buddy is leaving for HK on Dec 27th n he wanted to meet up soon after my exams ended but i jus kept procrastinating n delaying....It ain't a crime to enjoy one's own company of cuz, i'm jus saying tt it feels weird to shy away frm old frens n refrain frm making new ones. haha...tokking abt tt, Yuntian's donned on her matchmaking apparel again, tis time she intends to fix me up with this hcjc senior who's apparently gd looking n has a decent character...too bad i'm totally not interested in making new frens, esp nt those of e opposite sex. There's a vacuum in my heart, perhaps winter has come to it now n i hv no idea when it'll thaw but when tt time comes, i'll noe i'm ready n will embrace tt romantic side of life with ful confidence n hope but i noe i'm nt ready. Not yet. Not yet for some time..
Perhaps some updates on wad i did today.... Slept at 3 plus am tis morn cuz had drinks at Fong seng with Wen till 2 am then had to walk all e way back to hall...god, i do hate walking man...plus my knee has been acting up recently with e regular runs n it's reallie a torture walkin all e way back to hall since jus tt other day, i had to walk all e way frm Clementi back to my hall when one bus broke down on a one lane road....Cudn't reallie ged to sleep so i read for a while...had tt same terrifying recurring dream, sthg tt has haunted me ever since i was a little child... simply can't cast those recurring nitemares aside, they seem to be recurring with a scary increasing freq too. Cold nite..tossed n turned n finally had to switch off e ceiling fan n pull down e binds..woke up at 8 am n set off for Plaza Sing to catch Bridget Jones Diary...e ger at e tix counter gave me a weird glance when i told her one tix, hmm...perhaps tt's sthg i jus gotta ged used to frm nw on? Veri few pple in e theatre as i expected. I like e movie, relaxing n funny n of cuz romantic albeit predictable with e slapstick humour disdained by Na...nt one to be favoured by movie critics or those Oscar fogies, of cuz but i'm jus a simple movie goer who's single n cud do with some love in my love, screen love, tt is, hahaha...din believe in e love in e movie though...nt tt i'm a cynic with rgds to love n romance, more of a skeptic nw, a pragmatic skeptic, haha. It did melt my heart a bit, i admit...but thr out e movie, my eyes wud sometimes roll n i wud snort silently to myself..
Emerged frm e movie at ard 12 pm, lunch crowd everytime, listlessly wandered thr e shops, realised tt not interested in shopping for clothes at all, ended up in Carrefour, i simply love shopping in megamarts like tis, haha...loved looking thr e bakery n sushi section...bought some food as well, hall supplies running low, e usual stuff, tuna, bread, milk...(tried Daisy hi low, sux!! I'm gg back to my Farmland lowfat milk once i finish tis carton, perhaps i shud jus dump it)..yeah, i tried e spicy crispy chicken frm the stall selling the snacks frm e famed Taiwanese nite market, Shilin nite market....costs 3 bucks...reminded mysef i needed to stick to a healthy diet but tot heck la...i wanna tell pple i've tried it b4, hahaha...n yeah, as expected overhyped n din reallie appeal to my tastebuds...dun reallie much like meat anyway...
Gt back to hall, was so hot i half expected smoke coming out frm my nostrils n ears...gt back, tired out, laid on bed for a gd read n then slept till 7. tot of popping down to e lounge to watch telly but decided agst it n decided to bring my run forward, ran ard the 96 route, ran down to NUH n then went back to e track, ran 4 rounds n then laid on e huge mattress they hv for high jump, climbed up on e bouncy mattress n flopped down, staring at e huge expanse of nite sky above....sigh...no stars again, e bright lights in the campus jus blot out e stars..but as i once told someone, the stars will always be there for u, jus tt someties u can't see them...Jus thinking of tt brings comfort... today i din feel tt gd abt tis run..felt a bit fatigued...as i lay down looking up at e stars, i tot of tt time when i went to OBS when i was in sec 3 n after climbing the tunnel, our instructor told us to lie down on e grassland n jus look up at e stars..there were no glaring city lights there, it was total darkness n there were so many beautiful, sparkling stars i felt so blissful,serene n happy...nvr forgotten tt moment n nvr will. My other beautiful encounter with stars but one which has become a sad one in retrospect wud hv been tt time, the eve of V day last yr..tt was my first actual date with Ric, i guess, nt even a date, an impromptu one, he offered to come over to take me out for supper when he heard tt i had nt taken dinner n we ended up dabaoing NYDC cheesecakes to eat in Sentosa...we laid down on e sand too n e stars were beautiful as well. That was a threshold in my life...a veri impt one, a huge transition n i felt unsure, uncertain but at tt time, e stars were there for me n jus made everything seem so beautiful, simple n true. I guess tt was e nite when i sorta felt sthg for him n e stars bore testimony to tt special moment..Haz...jus look at me, i can jus go on n on abt stars...
yeah, anyway, after e run, came back for a bath n been surfing e net n chatting, tml intend to refrain frm gallivanting outside n staying indoors to do up my resume n to surf websites for jobs n stuff, time to ged my stuff tog. Since i'm nt dg thesis or ism, i shud do sthg abt my career planning...if i want a career in e future. Been hving enuff fun by myself, time to ged down to some serious work. Perhaps, i shud squeeze in a swim tml too, weather has been perfectly hot for a swim n a nice tan. Tis is a reallie long blog entry, norm, i dun blog tt long, wondered wad gt into me, it's a diff kind of feeling knowing that there'll be pple reading my blog entries but to tell e truth, i feel liberation too....Here's to freedom n liberation then..ltrz.
Was tokking to Soph jus nw cuz she asked me whether i'll be turning up for e history honours Xmas gathering n i was actually disinclined to turn up for it at first but on second tots, i tot perhaps i shud go? Inner struggle, reallie...felt a bit like the character I read in e 2nd book of e Gresham Chronicles, Mr Clay...hmmm...plus the all impt n paramount event of e yr...2a's 10th yr anniv...dun ask me why i'm nt gg. I'm nt too sure why either, perhaps disapptment with some frenships hv made me dev e notion tt i may nt thoroughly enjoy myself in such a big, social gathering n i reallie do nt wish to dampen pple's spirits. Like i asked Soph, am i retreating into reclusivity? Becoming a social hermit? I used to enjoy time alone by myself too but now, it has taken on a diff scale in tt i dun much wish to hang out with big grps n sometimes nt even single frens as well. Rather ashamed of e fact tt Weiyi, my closest guy buddy is leaving for HK on Dec 27th n he wanted to meet up soon after my exams ended but i jus kept procrastinating n delaying....It ain't a crime to enjoy one's own company of cuz, i'm jus saying tt it feels weird to shy away frm old frens n refrain frm making new ones. haha...tokking abt tt, Yuntian's donned on her matchmaking apparel again, tis time she intends to fix me up with this hcjc senior who's apparently gd looking n has a decent character...too bad i'm totally not interested in making new frens, esp nt those of e opposite sex. There's a vacuum in my heart, perhaps winter has come to it now n i hv no idea when it'll thaw but when tt time comes, i'll noe i'm ready n will embrace tt romantic side of life with ful confidence n hope but i noe i'm nt ready. Not yet. Not yet for some time..
Perhaps some updates on wad i did today.... Slept at 3 plus am tis morn cuz had drinks at Fong seng with Wen till 2 am then had to walk all e way back to hall...god, i do hate walking man...plus my knee has been acting up recently with e regular runs n it's reallie a torture walkin all e way back to hall since jus tt other day, i had to walk all e way frm Clementi back to my hall when one bus broke down on a one lane road....Cudn't reallie ged to sleep so i read for a while...had tt same terrifying recurring dream, sthg tt has haunted me ever since i was a little child... simply can't cast those recurring nitemares aside, they seem to be recurring with a scary increasing freq too. Cold nite..tossed n turned n finally had to switch off e ceiling fan n pull down e binds..woke up at 8 am n set off for Plaza Sing to catch Bridget Jones Diary...e ger at e tix counter gave me a weird glance when i told her one tix, hmm...perhaps tt's sthg i jus gotta ged used to frm nw on? Veri few pple in e theatre as i expected. I like e movie, relaxing n funny n of cuz romantic albeit predictable with e slapstick humour disdained by Na...nt one to be favoured by movie critics or those Oscar fogies, of cuz but i'm jus a simple movie goer who's single n cud do with some love in my love, screen love, tt is, hahaha...din believe in e love in e movie though...nt tt i'm a cynic with rgds to love n romance, more of a skeptic nw, a pragmatic skeptic, haha. It did melt my heart a bit, i admit...but thr out e movie, my eyes wud sometimes roll n i wud snort silently to myself..
Emerged frm e movie at ard 12 pm, lunch crowd everytime, listlessly wandered thr e shops, realised tt not interested in shopping for clothes at all, ended up in Carrefour, i simply love shopping in megamarts like tis, haha...loved looking thr e bakery n sushi section...bought some food as well, hall supplies running low, e usual stuff, tuna, bread, milk...(tried Daisy hi low, sux!! I'm gg back to my Farmland lowfat milk once i finish tis carton, perhaps i shud jus dump it)..yeah, i tried e spicy crispy chicken frm the stall selling the snacks frm e famed Taiwanese nite market, Shilin nite market....costs 3 bucks...reminded mysef i needed to stick to a healthy diet but tot heck la...i wanna tell pple i've tried it b4, hahaha...n yeah, as expected overhyped n din reallie appeal to my tastebuds...dun reallie much like meat anyway...
Gt back to hall, was so hot i half expected smoke coming out frm my nostrils n ears...gt back, tired out, laid on bed for a gd read n then slept till 7. tot of popping down to e lounge to watch telly but decided agst it n decided to bring my run forward, ran ard the 96 route, ran down to NUH n then went back to e track, ran 4 rounds n then laid on e huge mattress they hv for high jump, climbed up on e bouncy mattress n flopped down, staring at e huge expanse of nite sky above....sigh...no stars again, e bright lights in the campus jus blot out e stars..but as i once told someone, the stars will always be there for u, jus tt someties u can't see them...Jus thinking of tt brings comfort... today i din feel tt gd abt tis run..felt a bit fatigued...as i lay down looking up at e stars, i tot of tt time when i went to OBS when i was in sec 3 n after climbing the tunnel, our instructor told us to lie down on e grassland n jus look up at e stars..there were no glaring city lights there, it was total darkness n there were so many beautiful, sparkling stars i felt so blissful,serene n happy...nvr forgotten tt moment n nvr will. My other beautiful encounter with stars but one which has become a sad one in retrospect wud hv been tt time, the eve of V day last yr..tt was my first actual date with Ric, i guess, nt even a date, an impromptu one, he offered to come over to take me out for supper when he heard tt i had nt taken dinner n we ended up dabaoing NYDC cheesecakes to eat in Sentosa...we laid down on e sand too n e stars were beautiful as well. That was a threshold in my life...a veri impt one, a huge transition n i felt unsure, uncertain but at tt time, e stars were there for me n jus made everything seem so beautiful, simple n true. I guess tt was e nite when i sorta felt sthg for him n e stars bore testimony to tt special moment..Haz...jus look at me, i can jus go on n on abt stars...
yeah, anyway, after e run, came back for a bath n been surfing e net n chatting, tml intend to refrain frm gallivanting outside n staying indoors to do up my resume n to surf websites for jobs n stuff, time to ged my stuff tog. Since i'm nt dg thesis or ism, i shud do sthg abt my career planning...if i want a career in e future. Been hving enuff fun by myself, time to ged down to some serious work. Perhaps, i shud squeeze in a swim tml too, weather has been perfectly hot for a swim n a nice tan. Tis is a reallie long blog entry, norm, i dun blog tt long, wondered wad gt into me, it's a diff kind of feeling knowing that there'll be pple reading my blog entries but to tell e truth, i feel liberation too....Here's to freedom n liberation then..ltrz.
posted by Witchy at 10:04 PM
5 Comments:
wow girl, your blog is really good! can tell that you are an experienced blogger..but a private one last time heh. will continue to visit your blog next time..hope that your blog will be filled with happier sentiments next time! Be happy ya? =)
Yo..ha this is a good start! And yeah it's really an interesting read..made me laugh a couple of times, the funny bits, that is. =p And for goodness sake..just come along for the party this Friday! =)
Sophia
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This is really a pro piece of work. i wonder when i can attend this level as a noob..haha...kidding..
anyway, juz wanna comment on something abt the 2a's 10th yr anni (opps...that disclose im from there). it wun be a big gathering from the responses and like you, im disappointed. perhaps in a different way coz u may be disappt with some or maybe juz one person(ME???). im disappt by alot of ppl, most of the times,not replying and taking for granted or worse din even care anymore if such friendships exist.
Juz a tot..
To be continued....
(hey i tink this phrase sounds cooler...perhaps i will change my blog address to this ha...)
p/s: i removed the previous comment due to a typo ha
It's hard to expect everyone to have the same kind of commitment regarding a particular event or a single significant day. So long as someone sees something which they treasure out of it, I guess that's what really matters. Not that people do not appreciate the effort put in, it's just that they did not phrase it in words, it doesn't matter how many people do not turn up, what matters most is actually how many people bother turning up, those are the people who will really make your day (given of course you are at any gathering, of course)
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