Reflections..

Been terribly sick, think ever since last thurs n it has been getting worse...Fever n cough...hven;t been tis sick for ages tt i finally had to overcome my aversion to e doc n drag myself there....okie, so it wasn't as scary as i tot but i was still pretty nervous...It's almost 3am nw but i still can't ged to sleep cuz i've been in bed for e whole of yesterday... e only times i was out of bed were mealtimes n it was pretty short too since i din hv much of an appetite....Tuesday was e worst, i lost my voice completely, so much thx to dear Wens for taking over my part, appreciate it, ger! Wed's pretty bad too, e fever had me freezing one moment n sweating profusely e next, e terrible cough kept me up the whole nite plus i jus felt so weary after coughing e entire day....jus nw was veri bad too, was literally freezing, all my goosepimples were up, wrecked by coughing fits...then all of a sudden, started feeling reallie hot n yeah, gt a bit better but it comes in a vicious cycle, hope i reallie do ged better frm nw on. It is way sucky to be sick esp now.

Tml or rather today, since it's oredi Thursday....i'll be making a veri impt decision in my life. That's after i call n ask them whether there's any bond plus e pay n stuff lidat, hopefully they can hear wad i'm saying cuz i croak now rather than tok. I think there shud be a bond given it's secretive n all tt but e duration of e bond's pretty impt too...Yeah, been giving it some tot or trying to in my delirious state of mind...n yeah, although e organization stuff seems pretty intimidating plus the escorting of e delegates n gg for lunches n dinners with them makes me feel like a flower vase, i do think tt e multidimensional nature of e job is pretty challenging n makes it more interesting. Heez, plus the head's a pretty interesting guy, tt is if i ged to join his division, he's in International Affairs, meaning e rest of e world other than Asia...though the Asian region seems more dynamic given that we hv more interactions with these ctries afterall...it's e nature of e job i'm most concerned with ultimately but it's a gd thing tt this job does entail wad i'm interested in..current affairs n politics though tt does come across as boring to some pple, haha..though i wudn't mind joining Soph at MICA, nice, colorful building! Bt well..i'm reallie nt tt artsy or cultured..

Heez, may be trying my hand at baking tis wkend, tt is if i can squeeze in some time, i think so actually, chose some simple recipes but in order nt to waste time since i hv presentations n essays to do, i've decided to bake in e morn, ain't it a perfect feeling to wake up to nice, warm scents of homebaked bread n cakes? It's nice to be baking for someone...:) budden i always bake for pple rather than myself anyway, jus tt they ain't much appreciated...okie, i think e ham n egg pie was quite successful, jus nt e brownies n cookies... trying for sthg more ambitious tis round but still relatively easy, at least i hope it is. It sure looks easy, haha....

Work wise, i'm gg to e lib tml morn to research on Kra..interesting topic: FISH, close to my heart too since tuna ranks as one of my top fave foods. Was looking thr Lockhart essay topics n yeah, think i may try getting bks for his essay too, time to do so! n sob...i hven't been running since last wed, i think...feels like forever...i feel like a blob....bet my stamina will go way downhill...n wonder when i'll start recovering to start running again...miss running so much, esp in e wee hrs of e morn...:)

Heard sthg frm my fren...gt me a bit down., worried abt her...yt, hope everything goes well n do update me, k? Jus rem u still hv lotsa gd frens who're concerned abt u..:) n all e best with ur job hunt!

okie...tis is a pretty long post tt i've made in some time....dun think i'll be gg to bed, haz...too bad can't go for a run...ciaoz!